God,
I have failed at my promise to not have sex. Does that mean that the Devil is heavily influencing my life and my actions? See, I am still so confused about the differences between love and lust. Why is it that I cannot have sex with my boyfriend whom I plan to marry? Why is it wrong for me to show him how much I love him? I only give myself to him, so why is that so bad?
On another note, thank You for getting us out of that party unharmed. I know it probably isn't the best environment for me to be in, but I just really want to experience things in life. I'm young, and you only live once... What's so wrong with me going to a party and having a couple of drinks? I know that every day is not promised and that I should be living each day trying to please You, but what about everything else? I don't want to die wondering what it would have been like if I had tried something. I want to be able to make mistakes and learn from them... That's the only way I'll be able to grow.
So forgive me, Father... I'm just trying to find my place in the world right now. I pray that You don't give up on me.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen
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